My heart hurts that much that I think that it had stopped beating. The painful effect had increased dramatically to the extend that it is so painful that I want to stop breathing. How I wish GOD could just help me end this misery or perhaps lessen it. I tried to avoid it but some how it came and overtaken me subconsciously.
The fact that I am jealous shows a lot. But I don't expect much things to be done as it is a one-sided thing. Am I really that bad? Are there any feelings for me? Perhaps not, Salvin, You are wishfully thinking. You are just so naive and stupid to even think about it.
How could someone be so un-bothered to even care or show some concern about the matter or person. I am suffering all the pain alone, perhaps some others maybe happy merry-ing away. The nights which I would wash my face with tears and really think about it, but others could be that nonchalant. How I wish I could disappear in this world, I would like to go to a world where all the people are feeling-less.
More time? Would it be much better? Or would it be just the same?
I really don't know how I would react if I knew the answer.
Since when all these started, nobody knows expect me. Long enough to make me think about it. Am I the choice or am I just a nobody?
I could be a very sensitive person at times, how I wished that could go away. Or perhaps some others could adopt that and be more sensitive to the surroundings and people. Not that I am blaming, but I would really hope that it might just come true some day.
Enough of rantings.
I would just like to make my life the way I like, who wouldn't wish? Right?
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