am I?

I am really questioning why am I in TP Design. I chose the path myself, so now I have to decide and make decisions myself to stay on the same spot or move on. I can't give the simple and plain stupid reason that I don't know how to do this and do that when I don't even make the effort to learn and find out from friends who know. I think I just simply too lazy, that is the fact and it won't change if I don't have strong mentality to push myself to the limits. Or perhaps I am just not talented or maybe I am fated to do theoretical stuff, which I don't think so, I neither good in operating design softwares nor good in studying too. I think maybe I don't even have a brain. I do silly things, I give retarded comments, I ask the most stupid questions a person could even think of and I irritate people with my fussy and outrageous attitude.

Did I made the wrong choice?

I think so.